This is life...Sometimes, it hurts.

I am not happy.
You know it's serious when I am unhappy. I'm such a bouncy person and when I am like this I'm not that way at all. I'm negative a lot. Totally opposite to the usual me. Negativity only drags you down further...

I am very rarely ever this unhappy.

I don't feel going to work tomorrow. What is the point?

I want a new job. I'm over vine yard work. I knew I would be.
Working with Katie and Luke is stressing me out because, I don't know when or if or even where the work is and I knew it would be this way...

It's full time work. Just not what I want anymore.

Then again, there's no point in myself just sitting around the house tomorrow either.

I feel that this week has been a disaster. I tried to plan for it. I was hopeful, only to be knocked down. That's reality in your face. *sighs*

At least if I do have work tomorrow it will keeps things off my mind. There is something for to look forward too!

Now, no more moping. *shakes herself*

I have applied for a few job. I am waiting for now to hear back from them. I'm hoping, just hoping...I just a reply. Maybe, it would be better if I rang some of them back? I'm not sure.

My sister has noticed during this evening that I am acting unhappy. She told me not to be because, I have people around me that care about me and she's right. But, I feel in my own little world that it is almost not enough. I know the utter feeling of someone showing they care about is enough to put a smile on my face.

Which reminds me I have barely smiled all day! Hehehe!