"I got a need, for something new,
I got a need, that says it's you,
I got a hunger, or has a hunger got me?
I get crazy, when I like what i see,
I got your name, I like how it sounds,
I get restless, 'till you come around,
I get going, will I ever stop?
I get down and you come and fire me up,
And I know what I feel should be natural."
(Infusion - Natural)
Since, I have move over here I have found myself listening to this song a lot when-ever I find someone 'new' to like...Despite the fact, I really love Infusion and I missed the chance to see them play on a live set!
It's just such an addictive song...
But, the reason on why I posted it was because, it's exactly how I am feeling once again. - And I love it!
It's that special feeling I was getting when-ever I meet someone I like really...and I could see myself possibly, getting rather serious with. It makes me smile. I'm excited about things. But, at the same time; things aren't serious yet. That's just what I love having fun, doing what-ever with them. It's nerve racking when things get serious and emotionally tied up to them.
But - Hey, that's the way relationships can be.
I've already planned to see him again on the weekend and I can't damn wait either!
xx.
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Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Saturday, February 03, 2007
I am colour blind...Cracked hearted made from stone.
I am brittle.
Brittle like a cracked heart at the best of times.
That's how I feel inside something.
I tend to take things to the heart too much, I'm a sensitive person.
Like the expression, "These words have torn my world apart", I feel as if I am truly that inside. They are only words, they can't hurt me. But, they can if I let them.
I may over look into a situation, occasionally. A lot of females do that. Which often leads to depression or an emotional upset. The mind can only handle so much.
But, it's the little things in life that make me happy, that make me smile.
Little things that I treasure so much.
Whether, it's drinking a coffee on a nice sunny day or receiving a special present from a friend to remember them by. Or just simply being appreciated by another human being. It just means SO much to me.
That is what I meant. When I say that I am brittle.
I feel as if sometimes, I get upset too easily or I emotional work up myself up sometimes. I've been trying to be more 'happy' this year. Although, I have been a lot happier since I moved over here to Western Australia. It's such a beautiful state. I never miss home though. I miss my Mother and Father and friends, of course.
I'm going to be returning home for a few weeks for my 21st at the end of May. I can't wait to see everyone again.
I will admit though, I have been a little bit lazy with phoning people; I feel as if I haven't been ringing some people enough. Some people do even bother ringing me anymore. Although, I always talk to my Mother or Father every few weeks.
xx.
Brittle like a cracked heart at the best of times.
That's how I feel inside something.
I tend to take things to the heart too much, I'm a sensitive person.
Like the expression, "These words have torn my world apart", I feel as if I am truly that inside. They are only words, they can't hurt me. But, they can if I let them.
I may over look into a situation, occasionally. A lot of females do that. Which often leads to depression or an emotional upset. The mind can only handle so much.
But, it's the little things in life that make me happy, that make me smile.
Little things that I treasure so much.
Whether, it's drinking a coffee on a nice sunny day or receiving a special present from a friend to remember them by. Or just simply being appreciated by another human being. It just means SO much to me.
That is what I meant. When I say that I am brittle.
I feel as if sometimes, I get upset too easily or I emotional work up myself up sometimes. I've been trying to be more 'happy' this year. Although, I have been a lot happier since I moved over here to Western Australia. It's such a beautiful state. I never miss home though. I miss my Mother and Father and friends, of course.
I'm going to be returning home for a few weeks for my 21st at the end of May. I can't wait to see everyone again.
I will admit though, I have been a little bit lazy with phoning people; I feel as if I haven't been ringing some people enough. Some people do even bother ringing me anymore. Although, I always talk to my Mother or Father every few weeks.
xx.
Thursday, February 01, 2007
Sometimes you just have to get up and fight back...With a key and locked heart.
<3
It makes me feel loved and wanted! - Thank you, Bob.
I'm feeling better today, I decided to take a day off from work to relax and do something that I would enjoy. Although, I did apply for some work. I know, I wont be hearing from them soon though.
Besides, I didn't find out until 10pm last night that I had to be up at 5:30am for vine yard work, otherwise, I would have gone to bed early. I didn't want to wake up feeling like utter shit this morning. Plus, yesterday was an 'emotional' day for me. I'm guessing, my period isn't helping my moods either. Stress tends to bring it on earlier for me, sometimes, sexual activity does as well. Not like I have had any of that lately.
The last time I was depressed was when my last boy friend broke up with 2 months ago. I haven't seen him around, I still think about how he is doing for himself though. I told myself I wouldn't ever mention his name again on my blogs nor even write about him. As if he never existed in my memory. But, considering the situation now, I feel the need to reflect upon my mood then, putting it into context as of now.
So, I ended up taking some more beach photos to post on Live Journal.
It seems to be a project that I am enjoying; sharing photos I have taken with the internet, from around here. It's something to keep my mind busy. Apart from work, social life is still okay. It hasn't been easy to make close friends here. I'm getting there though. I don't wish to end up hanging around the wrong crowd again. I'm such a sensitive soul. It only destroy what ever is left inside myself. Sometimes, I just feel so brittle inside.
xx.
It makes me feel loved and wanted! - Thank you, Bob.
I'm feeling better today, I decided to take a day off from work to relax and do something that I would enjoy. Although, I did apply for some work. I know, I wont be hearing from them soon though.
Besides, I didn't find out until 10pm last night that I had to be up at 5:30am for vine yard work, otherwise, I would have gone to bed early. I didn't want to wake up feeling like utter shit this morning. Plus, yesterday was an 'emotional' day for me. I'm guessing, my period isn't helping my moods either. Stress tends to bring it on earlier for me, sometimes, sexual activity does as well. Not like I have had any of that lately.
The last time I was depressed was when my last boy friend broke up with 2 months ago. I haven't seen him around, I still think about how he is doing for himself though. I told myself I wouldn't ever mention his name again on my blogs nor even write about him. As if he never existed in my memory. But, considering the situation now, I feel the need to reflect upon my mood then, putting it into context as of now.
So, I ended up taking some more beach photos to post on Live Journal.
It seems to be a project that I am enjoying; sharing photos I have taken with the internet, from around here. It's something to keep my mind busy. Apart from work, social life is still okay. It hasn't been easy to make close friends here. I'm getting there though. I don't wish to end up hanging around the wrong crowd again. I'm such a sensitive soul. It only destroy what ever is left inside myself. Sometimes, I just feel so brittle inside.
xx.
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