And I was in for the shock of my life...

I found out today that I am only getting $14 an hour...Despite the fact I can earn double on Sundays and 'time and a half' on Saturdays. It's just not good enough!
The one and only time I would consider working for a wage like that is only if I was on an apprenticeship for horticulture. At the end of it, I know it would BE worth it.

Apart from the (1) poor pay which could be worse, the state minim is $12.30; I have (2) no life after 9pm because, I have to be in bed by them if I am on the morning shift. Which means no late nights, unless, I kindly ask my workmate if possibly I could have the morning off. Which I am going to try and limit to once a month if he lets me, I would feel guilty though, but, I'd take on the afternoon shift....I need a damn social night life at some point in my life!
He understands that. My big boss doesn't or at least I think he doesn't know how important it is at my age!
(3) Getting up early is another issue (I have to get up at 4:30am and be ready for work by 5am), as I have only been getting about 7-7.5 hours sleep every night, meaning some days during lunchtime I need to have a nap...

It's more-so important now that potentially I could be getting myself a boyfriend and Daniel would only get to see me on the weekends. I've honestly never know a guy as sweet as what he is. It melts my heart. :D

Anyway, I'm either going to get a casual job in order for me to be able to earn more money and try to fill in the time between 9am-1pm or I'm going to find a new full time job and quit my current one that I will enjoy a lot more and that will have a higher wage. I know I would be happy then. Right now, I'm not happy and I haven't been since I started this new job. It only took me a whole 3 days to realise that I know have no night life.

A whole $2-3 per hour in a wage makes a lot of difference at the end of a working week. *shakes fist*

xx.

The walking dead...

I am not sure if I'm awake - or - Asleep right now.
I have no idea how I am even awake at all right now.

I woke up at 4:45am this morning for work. That's why.

I feel like a 'living zombie', yet, my eyes are wide awake.
My mind wishes it could just pass out right now and never wake up again.

I know, I wont sleep though...if I tried right now.

Yeah, Thank you SO much Bob - For you're kind words. It made me smile. :D
You're such a nice man and I hope that you get over your depression...
I can't understand how people lose the point in life in the first place. But - the ones that don't give up, have a strong will to live.

"It's a hard life, so beat it back..." - Don't let the 'game' win over you. Be strong. Have faith. It's mind over matter...

And yet, you feel like it is your own fight? It is to some degree, but, there ARE many others that suffer the same thing as you do. Don't forget that!


xx.