Job issues...

It has only just occurred to me; How am I supposed to have a social life now?

Seriously, if I work 7 days a week. 3 hours in the morning, swapping afternoon shifts with Wayne which is also 3 hours, (once I'm confident at working by my way with the routine though...)
I can't really get the morning off, unless, another person is going to be hired...
I'm hoping that in the not too distance future this does occur...


If I am to work a full week...5am-8am, 2pm-5pm, as I said, 7 days a week, mon-sun...That is a full 42 hour week. I'm not even sure what I am getting paid per hour yet. I although I am getting 'time-and-a-half' on weekends.

I would really like to be able to go and hang out with Daniel and allowed myself to have late nights...
Or anyone, for that matter! - I really haven't been having many late nights since, I've moved over here, just the odd one now and again is nice. But lately, I have been meeting a few people off of here and you know, they may wish to hang out with myself some more.

Surely, someone will understand. I'm young and I need a social life or else. I'm going to go insane!

xx.

Let me breathe...

I've started a new job. About time too!
I have a cleaning job at the Dunsborough mall. I start at 5am - 8am, then, I have afternoon shift at 2pm-5pm. Just for my training though, I am only starting the morning for the first few days. So I get into a routine pattern.

I was feeling desperate and starting to feel that I was losing hope in everything in general.
I hate to use the word, "desperate" as I always imagine myself clinging on to someone for dear life with fearful tears in my eyes. Yep, that's defining, "desperate" to me...
Senseless hope in a way. A senseless need. Like crying alone in my room, hoping for something, in fact, anything that will make me see the light!

I need the answers...badly. I need to know this or that. If none can answer my questions, then what is the point in it?

My work mate is actually, a really nice guy too. His name is Wayne. He is a bit old for me though! Haha. Aw, he told me I have a nice smile...and that I should smile more often!

I want to stay single for a while, at least, until I know I have met the right person. When-ever that will be, I'll just know it, like almost mindless response to the word, "YES!", jumping into deep dark water below.

xx.